An Unrecieved letter

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I had just returned from a twenty-day trip and my girlfriend was angry at me. I thought it was the normal anger that comes from a partner whose business causes him to be away from home for such a long period time. It’s hard for the one who stays back. I made it up to her with Dinner and roses and nights at the spa.

But with each passing day, her resentment grew stronger.

A week later, she finally confessed, “Why didn’t you reply to my letter?”
“What letter?” I asked.
“I left you a long handwritten letter, in your suitcase.”

I had never seen the letter. To this day, I have no clue what happened to it.

We weren’t doing good, and although we had been dating for two years, our relationship was coming to a brutal end. She would never tell me what she wrote. Whenever I brought it up, it just made her angrier. We fought the good fight for a few more months, but finally, I had to break it off. I will never forget telling her that she could stay in my house for as long as she needed, but I would be leaving.

And as I walked to my car, I looked back through the living room window, to see her break down and cry, falling to the floor, knowing her life would forever be changed. It hard when you think you have something figured out, only to find out that you never do.

I will always wonder what that letter said, I will always wonder if it would have changed things. But sometimes relationships end like that. We look for answers where there are none. We go on wondering how something so good could collapse so fast.

It’s not always about figuring it out, sometimes it’s just about letting go.

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