“Taking Risk and Putting Yourself Out There.”
Fiction. Based on a True Desire to be Self Sufficient
This journal entry is inspired by true events. Some of the characters, names, businesses, incidents, and certain locations and events have been fictionalized for dramatic purposes. Any similarity to the name, character or history of any person is entirely coincidental and unintentional.
Trigger Warning: our program often motivates people to discuss their trauma. If you find yourself feeling overwhelmed, please, take a step back to address emotional flashbacks and trauma before continuing to push yourself. If you are experiencing a medical emergency, call 911 or the National Suicide Hotline at (1-800) 273-8255.
So you go before the throne of the God you serve, and like the prodigal son, you ask for your inheritance or in this case a better way of life. This is the interview that follows.
God: To obtain the destiny that I have for you, you have to be committed. Are you?
You: I am. Since 2006 I have been actively working for you. I have adapted your core values as my own. Up until this point, I have been training. Now that I have put away childish things, I am ready to become a full-time Brand Ambassador.
God: What motivates you for this position?
You: Well, I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t looking for Earthly Goods. Not every battle is spiritual. The Sword of the Spirit cannot slice the pains of hunger nor can it save me from Homelessness. I must have monetary compensation. Now know this, a tenth of my earnings shall be yours as agreed. Not only that, I’ve always helped my family, and I’ve given to those who are less fortunate than me. I see no reason to stop any of that. If anything, I can use what you provide me to do more. Now, the spiritual wars…I’ll do those for free. I kinda like doing that.
God: What are you willing to do? How far are you willing to step outside of your comfort zone? My concern is your shyness. How can I count on you to speak for me when you don’t even sing in the church choir knowing that they need you?
You: Good question. It’s true that my shyness and humility blocks me from stepping up to the plate. It’s also true that I have been purposely stepping outside of my comfort zone for many years now. I even taught vacation bible school once. Last summer I was going to do it a second time. I went the first day but had to stop after becoming violently ill if you remember. Since I was made aware of my disability, I have made it a point to ask for what I want, immerse myself in confrontational issues, and stand my ground. While I can’t promise you anything in particular; I will promise to do everything in my power to not disappoint you or myself. This mission is too important to fail.
God: What makes you think these gifts are yours for the taking?
You: They are not mine for the taking but are instead my birthright. You promised them to me in the book of Jeremiah chapter 29 verse 11: “ For I know the plans I have for you” declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not harm you plans to give you hope and a future.” Those are your words, Lord. The older I get, the tighter I hold onto your word.
God: When can you start?
You: You trained me to be a self-starter. I started at 5:17 this morning.
God: One last thing, are you tired?
You: No, I find myself renewed in your strength.