“Imagine if you will, not being able to control your day to day activities, your emotions, you know…one thing about depression…to some extent its chemical, and once you get into a cycle of depression, it seems to almost feed on itself.”
“Sword of the Spirit”
Fiction. Base on a True En Route from
Budva, Montenegro to Mostar, Bosnia-Hertegovina.
This journal entry is inspired by true events. Some of the characters, names, businesses, incidents, and certain locations and events have been fictionalized for dramatic purposes. Any similarity to the name, character or history of any person is entirely coincidental and unintentional.
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You saw the next sign for the next secret unsealed.
It’s the shape of divine Adam facing the future, facing Christ as the offensive weapon. That offensive weapon is true compassion exemplified through the True Pride of the Good Works from the Good Shepherd which now is ours to wield. This is the sword of the spirit. The Holy Spirit.
Your sponsor called from LA to remind you that there are some things that do not belong to you that I must detach from. She knows that you’ve taken too much weight that is undue.
You think of fallen Adam taking on the undue burden of Eve’s guilt upon himself. This is also false pride, but a type of sacrifice that directly opposes Satan’s false pride. While you are taking the credit of some else’s Good Works, the other you have from is simultaneously taking on the burden of undue guilt. One sacrifices by taking undue burdens upon oneself and the other sacrifices by taking credit of someone else’s Good Works. The is sacrificial motif of Cain.
You’ve been lonely.
The temptation to take what is not yours is strong.
Aaron belongs to Amy.
You belong to Rylie.
You can Journal all you want but if you don’t practice what you preach you have nothing. You told Aaron the other day that you’re not going to see him when you come back. You’re going to work as a barista somewhere near where Rylie is staying and you’re going to somehow learn true humility this way.
“Just please stay out of our lives,” you heard Amy say. It’s the same plea you had made in your heart about the other woman 9 years ago.
It was a cry for, please let me figure it out with Sonny. I know I got some work to do, but you’ve got 7 years of experience ahead of me. Just please leave us alone so we can solve this between Sonny and I.
You pleaded to Sonny the way Aaron is pleading silently with you… just please be patient with me. You have 9 years on me.
Karmic 9 is the full circle and it is here in this very moment in Budva Montenegro that you understand the balance, or the riddle of the serpent eating its tail/tale.
Every person’s life journey starts with the white space, in nativity, in naive eyes, and then something happens that initiates the shadow awareness within ourselves. This is the Call to Adventure…the Shadow Calls to us, and pulls us forward…into the world of the unknown…this is the black space in the Ying. This unknown space is the world of the Hero’s Adventure. The new center is in the heart of darkness and it is a white dot ⚪️ in the valley of the shadow of death, the world of the Ying, the upside down world, is the Shadow’s home turf.
Here, the Hero is confronted by the Shadow to both help and hinder the Hero in finding this center..for this center is the very thing that will set the Shadow free from the bondages if its own self-created hell. In other words, the Hero’s task is to help the fallen angel find its own wings again…that can only come from the Hero’s own strengthening of the heart, which must be tempered by Holy Spirit. Think of an astronaut in outer space that needs to wear the bodysuit in order to step out into zero oxygen and zero gravity…only Holy Spirit can keep you anchored, rooted, and strengthen to face the seemingly impossible task at hand.
The Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people. 19 Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it.
Ephesians 6:10-20 New International Version (NIV)
The Upside Down World
Going in to Shadowland to find the key that unlocks the shackles to set the Shadow free is like looking for a needle in a haystack.
That is where Joseph Campbell’s Monomyth and Paul the Apostle and John the Baptist’ testimony fuse together to serve as a guide on how to walk with the Good Shepherd, who in the upside world becomes Gandalf the Wizard for the hobbit, lighting the way.
You are now in spiritual connection with the Shadow’s hidden desire, which is in congruence with with Hero’s true…essentially this is the Shadow’s hidden desire, which is in exact congruence with the Hero’s true desire.