“Separation.” Fiction. Based on a True Fiction.

“Whether it is a loss from a lost love or some other catastrophe it is still a loss, a separation”

by Frank Sinatra


Fiction. Based on a True Fiction.

by Pete Carling

This journal entry is inspired by true events. Some of the characters, names, businesses, incidents, and certain locations and events have been fictionalized for dramatic purposes. Any similarity to the name, character or history of any person is entirely coincidental and unintentional.

Trigger Warning: our program often motivates people to discuss their trauma. If you find yourself feeling overwhelmed, please, take a step back to address emotional flashbacks and trauma before continuing to push yourself. If you are experiencing a medical emergency, call 911 or the National Suicide Hotline at (1-800) 273-8255.



Awareness is such a busy word. How can we be aware of everything in today’s society? The answer quite simply, is that we can’t. We can’t serve two Masters at the same time.
If we allow ourselves the expectation that we can be all things to all people then we most assuredly will fail.

Awareness, is a process. It is not something we can point to and say, “Ah ha, I’ve got it!” No, awareness is a word that defies description because it is it cannot be described. In our minds we have a concept of awareness but until we gather this feeling into our hearts we cannot be truly aware.

The famous author/writer Mr. James Thurber wrote, “We cannot look back in anger, nor forward in fear but around in awareness. I believe Mr. Thurber was trying to alert us to a common mistake amongst our human family. We cannot find any answers to our dilemmas by looking back at historical fiascos or look ahead in time with fearful trepidation, anticipating the worst to befall us but rather we should attempt to concentrate our innermost emotions with reasonable qualities of mercy on ourselves and others. I have heard it said by many mystics that only time we have is now; or, we must or can live in the present moment and he more we do, the more aware we become of ourselves and our physical and mental surroundings. In other words, we become aware and our new awareness beckons us to react more calmly and efficiently in our minds.

The only way I know that one can accomplish or put himself or herself on this road to awareness is to completely surrender our hearts to the kingdom within, heaven.

My awareness and your awareness grows every time we say, I love you to another human being. We cannot be full of ourselves in this process but we can become more aware of our feelings and surroundings and treat others the way we want to be treated by becoming aware of our actions and how it can affect our brothers and sisters. We can see symbolically as the Coptic Fellowship states in its Recommended Daily Prayer, that all children are our children and all people are our brothers and sisters.

If we do this work than we become more aware of the needs of others just like Jesus The Christ expounded on during his experiences on earth. Jesus The Christ was a radical and upset the status quo by listening and caring for the lowest and poorest of our society. He said, “The last shall be first and the first shall be last”, because I believe any suffering or contemplation of those in need will increase our awareness ten-fold. Awareness is a holy writ of experience that all human beings can be imbued with if we decide that this type of action is worthy of our attention or plainly spoken, our awareness of our human faults become part of our everyday
modus operandi. Awareness is a God-given right for all of humanity and one that can be practiced daily.

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