“The idea that we could be anyone, do anything, gave us a determination that would drive us into our troubled futures and on an endless quest for better. What we didn’t quite understand was that better cost.” – Suzanna T

Narcissistic Mother.

Fiction. Based on a True Mother-Daughter Relationship.

By Anastasia Cosima

This journal entry is inspired by true events. Some of the characters, names, businesses, incidents, and certain locations and events have been fictionalized for dramatic purposes. Any similarity to the name, character or history of any person is entirely coincidental and unintentional.

Trigger Warning: our program often motivates people to discuss their trauma. If you find yourself feeling overwhelmed, please, take a step back to address emotional flashbacks and trauma before continuing to push yourself. If you are experiencing a medical emergency, call 911 or the National Suicide Hotline at (1-800) 273-8255.

You’ve amounted to nothing. You’re nothing but a failure. If your main goal was to live vicariously through me, then yes, I am a failure. There’s only so much vicarious living you can do before you realize that you’ve lost control.
You never once considered my wishes in any of the decisions you made regarding my life. If there was a chance for you to have a do-over, you attempted to do it through me. Education was my ticket out of here. You resented me more for having access to opportunities that weren’t available to you.
You were supposed to help guide me along this journey, but you attempted to sabotage every opportunity that came my way. You’re not the only one, but you’re the one that inflicted the most damage.