“I’ve built up this armory of different coping mechanisms for different experiences.”
by Elsa Kennedy
“I Should Love”
Fiction. Based on a True Conversation.
This journal entry is inspired by true events. Some of the characters, names, businesses, incidents, and certain locations and events have been fictionalized for dramatic purposes. Any similarity to the name, character or history of any person is entirely coincidental and unintentional.
hindsight is kryptonite for an artist,
unsure if i have something to say
in light of what transpired today,
replaying conversations over & over
in my head, time isn’t the ideal lover
moving too fast for me to think.
smiling, smiling, smiling, smiling,
through words that come pouring out
that i don’t think are mine, cringing
because i don’t know what it’s about.
i can’t believe it was my soul who spoke,
i should love that someone inside me;
a devil took hold my tongue and voice.
something’s adrift, to hide was her choice.
looking back to the forms from the past,
poetry written in Sicilian history to stand
for those missing a voice, to stand & last.
i find her there; does she have anything to say?